Be Anxious For Nothing

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Over the past few weeks there have been times that I’ve found myself feeling quite anxious.  We took a wonderful vacation and were surrounded by incredible beauty and I still caught myself feeling anxious.  In frustration I said to Vanessa, “why am I so anxious?”  She quickly answered, “You know why!”  I guess I did.  I’ve been struggling with health issues for three months, not quite feeling well, and knowing I had to see the dreaded oncologist again.  I started crying out to the Lord for peace but then He gently reminded me of this verse.

Philippians 4:6 “do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God.”

Telling yourself or others not to be anxious really never seems to help solve the problem of anxiety.  I wonder if much of our anxiety doesn’t have a lot to do with our desire to be in control. While I don’t like to think of myself as a control freak  the anxiety I feel when I’m feeling completely out of control of my circumstances might be an indication that I’m still not completely free.  I have to consciously hand my circumstances over to His sovereign and loving care.  I make supplication for healing but thanksgiving was an issue.  As I thought about it I’m not sure its saying I need to feel thankful for my circumstances, and my present health struggles, but I am called to have an attitude of gratitude for all the blessings of my life.  It seems I have a tendency to forget the incredible goodness of God in my life when life isn’t going the way I would like.  I’m so incredibly blessed!  When I’m focused on how good He is to me, it changes my perspective on the present circumstances.  There is no need to be anxious because of my Abba’s perfect love for me.  He’s the one who brings me through the storms of life.  No matter what circumstances I’m facing I know He fights for me.  I can come boldly to Him with all of my request knowing my security is founded in His unending love.  That’s where anxiety flees and peace that passes understanding floods our hearts.

Today I got great news from the oncologist.  My CT scan and blood work came back negative for cancer.  It did reveal a few other concerns but nothing that would explain my present symptoms.  All of the doctor visits and tests have shown that I have only 30% of my right vestibular nerve working and that can be a contributing factor to my balance issues.  So I’m seeing a specialist whose helping me with some special exercises.  In the mean time more doctor visits and tests or my preference – a complete and full healing.  So, please do continue to pray for me.  Thank you for allowing me the great privilege of being your pastor.  I’m so grateful for all of your love and support.

You are loved!

Pastor Tim